I NEED a man!!!

Isn’t that just the most ridiculous thing you’ve ever read?

We’ll imagine telling yourself this for nearly 20 years!!

When I was a kid, I tried so hard to get the validation of my father. As I got older though, I found it didn’t matter what I did, I would never get what i was looking for. So, I did what anyone would do and looked for it in other men…well boys at the time as I was only an early-teen. 

I began searching for someone, anyone, who would validate my existence, make me feel important and tell me “it’s ok”. And I’m sure some of it had to do with being told at 13 that I was fat and ugly by someone I had a “relationship” with didn’t help either…all in all though, I spent several years of my life almost begging for attention and then when I stopped getting it I would look for it again until I found it and I would hold on as tightly as I could, even if i really wasn’t interested in that person.

Today though, somehow, I came to this realization of what I was mentally and emotionally doing to myself and decided that enough was enough…i hope you find my dirty laundry helpful and that it also helps you did yourself of yours.

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